"The Gift of Raising"

Knowing you want the good for me and for her.

Knowing these moments may seem small.

Knowing these days we both are growing together.

These days are simple, precious and pure.

These days may sometimes seem tiring and trying.

These days are etched in our hearts forever more.

  Help me to love her honestly and perfectly.

Help me to rely on you when I don't.

Help me to know her like you know me.

These moments though precious, will soon be gone.

These days pass quicker than I can possibly realize.
These pearls of wisdom from only you are drawn.

Remind me the gift of motherhood is just that, a gift.
Remind me not to lose your pearls amongst the mess.
Remind me each day that the end of childhood will come swift.

Telling myself the world outside your will, doesn't matter.
Telling her only your love is real and perfect.
Telling the world of your love, with how I teach her.

As I grasp on to her childhood with all my might
As I look to you for guidance
As I keep my emotions in line with your perfect sight.

Praying to you with shouts of glory and of much Praise.
Praying when my patience is so small.
Praying for wisdom, for this child you gave to me to raise.

A Mommy's Prayer

"A Mommy's Prayer"

Kneeling in prayer

I am pushing away evil with one fist in the air.

I am trying to think.

The words come pouring, emotions that brought me to this brink.

Pushing against the current.

Confused by the world and what is actually relevant.

I am not lost and alone

Praying for my life, my child, my home.

Lord, quiet me.

Hear my soul and its need, for only you can set me free.

Lord, know my intent

I want to serve but my humanness, my will does bend.

Draw me away.

Take me to our healing place, to peace and let me stay.

Help me know you

I am believing you, all our days can be sanctified, yes, all we do.

Protect your child

All that is against you would like my life to run wild.

Freedom is from you

Your words, written for me, will guide me through.

Standing from my knees

My heart is hard against sin, my soul, focused on you will be.

Strength for today

Stronger because of my time with you, under your protection I will stay.

Thank you Lord

All I have is yours.

Amen

Measurements

Measurements

I sized myself up with the measurement of my daughter's behavior

I have cried at the results

I sized myself up with the measurement of my husband's affections

I have cried at the results

I sized myself up with the measurement of my pier's invites and attentions

I have cried at the results

I sized myself up with the measurements of my own accomplishments

I have cried at the results

Then  a tap, tap, tap on my heart

His voice as sweet as spring  
His voice as strong as thunder

His truths older than this world I call home 
His grace bigger still

So many scriptures of His compassion 
So many scriptures of His love

So many scriptures of His Deity 
So many scriptures of His son

Then I read

I read His note to me and learn more about measurement

I read His note and learn more about what He sees

I read His note and learn about perfection

I read His note and I know He sees His perfect Son when

He sees me!

I size myself up with the measurement of God's Love and Grace
I smile at the results

Wearing Millstones

"Wearing Millstones?"

Some days I have one too many things on my plate. 

The nursing home is calling. Ethel has fallen. The Show Some Love service

project needs my attention. My daughter and husband are both veighing for

 my attention at the same time.  My homework for Bible Study is still

waiting on me.  There is a flood of water outside my downstairs bathroom.  

My daughter just decorated her playroom with black paint and piles and

piles of glitter.  My parents are hurting because I never get to see them. 

I am missing my family so much that my heart is having a hard time

praising.  One sweet well meaning friend asked if Spell check was not

working on the blog because 15 words were misspelled  Now

everyone knows I can't spell.  My husband wants to construct a ten foot

high pergola and I am afraid to stand on a kitchen chair because I am afraid

of heights. I have seven ideas for my blog and none are panning out. 

 My daughter is acting like she is already a teenager, with those hands

on the hips.  My daughter just repeated a swear word and I wish I could

say she heard from a little friend of hers.  I am struggling with my husband

and my spiritual relationship  because the realization that he really

 may not know the Lord, just smacked me in the face.

This list could go on and on....

Meanwhile.. how is my attitude?  What is my child seeing?  How

am I living out these everyday struggles in front of her?  By my words

and actions, how am I raising her?

The Word doesn't always address the woes of mommy hood.  Not in

in so many words.  It does give clear instruction on how our little ones

should be led  and the consequences of not leading or leading them

in the wrong direction.

Matthew 18: 6

 But if anyone causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin,

it would be better for him to have a large millstone hung around his neck

and to be drowned in the depths of the sea.

Matthew 18:10

 “See that you do not look down on one of these little ones.

For I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my

Father in heaven."

Think of Eli and his wicked sons. " I (God) told him that I would judge

his family forever because of the sin he knew about ... He failed to

restrain them." 

After all Eli had done in bringing Samuel up in the House of the Lord

Eli was punished because the word says he knew of his sons sins and

did nothing. 

Ephesians 6:4

 Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead,

 bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord.

No matter what is going on around me my most important

task is to raise my daughter correctly.  I hated the expression

"Children are so resilient".  Meaning "Oh they'll be fine pretty

much no matter what"  I think this is a lie the devil started.  Hurt

a child when they are young and it will leave scares that will

last their whole lives.  Teach a child it is all about them and they

will struggle with generosity their whole lives.  Let them see your

anger out of control and unapologetic and they will fight against

the whole world and never realize why they don't have peace.

BUT...

God promises that if you teach them Godly living, if you show them

Godly living they will have a stronghold that they will be a million

times more likely to live in and under the protection of, then if

you do not.  Show them you love Jesus and they may too.

Let them see you studying from your Bible daily and they

will remember it for a lifetime. (Worked for my mom)

Isaiah 55:11

 So is My word that goes out from My mouth; It will not

return to me empty (or void).

What an awesome promise. It Will Not Return Void.

So many nights I have to be in prayer for help and forgiveness

realizing I didn't do the job I wanted to for my daughter. 

God also promises that if you look to Him for the

answers He will show you them.

My nerves get stretched some days I need a break.

I think when is bedtime?  I can not wait!

God is whispering simple truths  but do I hear?

Is the call on mommy a million times deafening my ear.

God help me see through the mess some days.

let me see you are my "break" in so many ways.

When struggles seem an every day thing.

Help me on your truths to cling.

Calming The whirlwind of my life is not my goal.

Loving, guiding our lives it is, being under your control.