My Word for the Year

My Word for the Year

Last year when I started this blog I felt I was in the process of

being freed.  I had been searching out the Lord and His will but

something was holding me back.  Something was stealing joy

and peace.  Like a hand, it held fast my arm as I tried to run

to the place I saw God wanted me to be.  Regret was a constant

thought and companion.

The Lord was there.  The spirit that lives in me called

out to Him who knows all the answers and he brought this

verse into my life.  A life that was full of regrets from sin.  A life

that was being held prisoner to my past mistakes and

misadventures.

The Lord is the Spirit, where the Spirit of the Lord is there is freedom.

2 Cor 3:17

God heard my pleas for forgiveness and my longing to be the person

only He could make me.  I have learned to let go of the past and

experience a life full of freedom.  Freedom to run to the place

God has for me in this journey.  To move along, closer to Him and

His kingdom.

Freedom

This year another word has been spoken to me from the spirit

that lives in me.  A word that again will bring me closer to

the woman I know God has called me to be.

In my past experience with regret and imprisonment I learned to

hide.  I learned to let people see only what was good.  Only

what I thought they should see.  Not the the mistakes I had

made or the tired, weak woman I sometimes still am.

God has been speaking this word to me.

Transparency

I have felt over this past year to let the World see me.  The Good

the Bad and the Ugly.  There is such an undeniable difference

in the person that writes this blog to the person that lived

in this body 10 years ago.  If you knew that person, in the

dark days of my life, you would not recognize me now.

This can bring strong emotions like fear.  What will

people think if they knew I went through all that?  Will they

understand the difference compared to back then?  Will

someone try to hurt me with the knowledge I lay in

front of them? 

God spoke through His word to me.

Do not fear.  You are (carved) in the palm of my hand.

I loved you so much I sent my son.  You are mine - I will

protect.

I am endeavoring this year to be transparent and to not

let fear stand in the road and dictate what to show and

what not to show.  Only God should dictate what

we do and don't do.  Transparency also means I want

to be sure I am clean and in good standing with my spiritual

walk.  That will also keep me on my toes.

I have a great testimony to what I was and to where I am today.  

ONLY the Lord full of grace and His expectations of Holiness

have brought me into a place of peace and joy.  Without

Him I would still be living "lost" and Prodigal.  If I take

my eyes off of Him, be assured I will fall again.  God called

me to be transparent so that  people will be

 able to see Christ straight "through" me.

What word has God given you this year?

What new inspirations is He showing you that

will lead you to the path He expects you to take?

Psalm 3:6; Psalm 27:3; Psalm 46:2; Psalm 91:5

John 3:16; Isaiah 49:16

It Is Better That I leave...

It Is Better That I Leave...

There was a time when I spent several years as the oppressed.  Spent

precious time feeling distraught, unempowered and wondering what to do next.

The last 8 or so years have truly been some of my best.  There is a great

reason for that.  The Lord saw  me in the mire and wreckage of

my life gone off the tracks. I had gone through divorce, a miscarriage, went

without a home of my own.  I had wonderful Christian families and friends that

prayed for me, sat with me as I lay unable to get off the kitchen floor. I had

 one friend bring pillows and she and I lay on the cool hard floor until the

wee hours of the morning.  I made bad decisions that would take a huge toll

on my body, heart and mind.  He took me from that place and set me into a

life bent on serving Him. He gave me a second chance. But before all of this

"saving", needless to say I felt, and was, a defeated women.

 I didn't understand the Holy Spirit and I spent hours praying

to feel wanted, loved and needed.  I didn't understand the one, the only one

that could make me truly know these things was already living inside me.

Did you know that in John 16:7 Jesus said to his disciples that it is

BETTER that he go away, and that unless He went away,

into heaven, the COUNSELOR would not be able to come.

That astonished me when I read that scripture today!  I have read that scripture

many times but this time God opened my eyes more than ever before.

Francis Chan writes 'Right now, imagine what it would be like to have

Christ standing beside you in the flesh, functioning as your personal

Counselor!'  Now hear what Jesus says.  "Its good that I

am going, if I don't the new COUNSELOR won't be able to come."

If we know Christ- truly know Him, the power of the Holy Spirit should

be, feel, be as evident to those around us, as IF CHRIST WAS

RIGHT HERE beside us. 

We go through horrible things.  This is part of life in many ways. It is a legacy

of sin.  Maybe not all of your own making, but the nature of sin is all around us.

The enemy will try to mangle what God has promised us.  If I

really understood, way back then, that the Holy Spirit was better

for me than if Jesus was standing right there beside me.  I do not think

 I would have been so defeated and bewildered.

But the ultimate truth is we are NOT ALONE.  The Spirit

of the HOLIEST resides inside of us.  What promise, what

power we should be drawing from these words.  Love, Joy, Peace

Long Suffering should be undeniable in our lives.  Take hold of

this truth today to move towards an empowered life.  The Holy Spirit is

our Power to live for Christ day in and day out!  To stand with us through

the trials of this life.  He resides in us, to direct, comfort, to be our conscious,

to be a friend that will never ever leave us.  No matter what the world

hurls at us and no matter what mistakes we make. 

Repentance, Gods Blessing, and total submission to His will are all hugely

involved but that is a whole other blog.  Just know this:  If you are

saved, if you have repented of sin, see your need for a savior and you

know only Christ can give this to you.  You have a bright shining light inside

of you.  You have a comfort that no human hands and no dark and dreaded

enemy can steal from you.  He is there for you, always. 

Believe and know

that the spirit that created this world into being, that Christ himself said is

better than himself for you, is ready to burst from that closet in your

heart that you pushed him into long ago. 

God has so much for us to do for His kingdom.  We must know

and use the gifts and power He bestowed upon us when we became

His children, to be able to fulfill our lives for Him.

My prayer today...Help me to know your Spirit in every way.

Draw me into a love so deep, Your new revelations I will keep.

I am no longer defeated, Rising from the Cross, Death and misery you cheated.

I am a conqueror for you today, no more bowing to the enemy of my spirits decay.

Help me feel your being in my soul, Don't let your power to me, the enemy control.

I am yours in every way!  Help me learn to live YOU in my every day.