"Why I love, why I proclaim, why I worship"

I had someone say to me one day "What is wrong with someone

who needs to be constantly reassured and constantly goes to Bible

teaching."  "Can't you just live your life right by yourself"

My answer was just "NO"

I know my savior lives with in me.  I have no doubt.  But also

there lives in me a fleshly nature that if not kept in check will

find its way into my daily life.  What do I use to combat this

flesh, this sense of intitlment, this frustration, this feeling

of being alone, this rebellion ect.  I read Gods word

and beg for the ansewers I need.  I throw myself daily on

His mercy and acknowledge my Constant need for Him.

I can not live a proper life with out looking to Him for

every single answer. 

I still am rellious and my flesh still gets in the way of

Gods plan.  But ...  I am far closer to what God

intended all along because I realized some time

ago that I can not live this life, this daily life with out

Him there.  With out me looking towards Him.  Each time

I take my flesh as truth  - I mess up!  Each and every time!

This is why I write.  This is why I tell you how much

I love Him and need Him.  This is why I will gladly tell you

I am a complete dissaster with out Him.  Why I love Him

so so much. 

I must look to Him each day for that support that no one

else could possibly give.  Yes I do rely on Him.

Each day!  Each day I do not.  I am outside

of His will.  I hope you are taking time

to Love Him, Proclaim Him, Worship Him.

Dear Sweet Jesus!  Dear constant and perfect God!

Know me as your own.  Treat me as your own.  Keep

me acountable.  Let the Pain I endure from my own wrongs

lead me closer to you!  I praise you and love you!